Being a mom is AWESOME but HARD!!

So this morning I took Koleman to school and I asked him if he wanted to walk in alone or if he wanted me to walk him to the gate. He always wants to go in by himself because I think it makes him feel big, but today he said he wanted me to walk him in. I didn't think anything of it and was excited to because I love to watch him in there. Anyways we walk in and he acted a little hesitant but seemed fine so I kissed him good-bye and was walking away, and I heard him run up to a boy that he really likes and say, "Hi, so and so", and the boy ignored him, so he went up and said hi again, and the little boy just ran off and wouldn't even say anything. Koleman walked away with his head held down a little. I was devistated and was about to go talk to him when he ran over to the slide and seemed fine. So I just watched him for a minute to make sure.
Well then after school I asked him how it was and he said it was fine. Then I asked him what he did at recess because I like to see if he played with anyone, or what he does when he has unstructured time like that. He said, "They wouldn't let me in because I didn't know the secret password." I asked who wouldn't let him in and he just kept saying the same thing over and over. I asked if it was a special club or something and he said yes, but he couldn't be apart because he didn't know the password. My heart sank. He didn't seem too upset about it, but I came home and cried for a while. He is just soooo precious and all he needs is one good friend that will take him under their wing. I hope and pray that he will find that friend. I know that he doesn't relate to other kids his age very well and they don't relate to him in some ways, so it will be challenging, but he is so stinkin cool I feel like he will be ok. I just HATE it when anyone treats anyone badly especially when it is my own little boy.
I wish there was a way to protect my little ones from any hurt at all, but I know that the only way for them to learn and grow is to face challenges themselves and learn how to become a better person for it. But it sure is hard when it comes to your own kids.